Guided Journey for Financial Abundance

As the energy of the economy begins an upswing, I invite you all to be on the front of the wave, with any issues around financial abundance cleaned up quickly and easily.

To this end, I’ve done something a little different this month. With the help of my guides, I’ve channeled a guided shamanic journey for clearing blocks to financial abundance. Many of us carry wounds from other lifetimes or from our ancestors about scarcity. Sometime our current emotions are informed by our soul’s history, like when we look at our bank balance and react like we’re a farmer realizing we don’t have enough stores to survive the winter. Often this is unconscious, so we don’t know why there’s so much fear, just that there’s an intense reaction.

In the guided journey, you’ll have the opportunity to release old, painful, toxic energy and to bring in fresh life-force energy. You’ll be able to heal past life wounds of scarcity and strengthen your root and sacral chakras. You’ll put energy towards manifesting abundance in the future. The recording is my gift to you.

To find it, go to my website- http://www.handsoverheart.com and click on the “articles” page. You can listen online or download it as an .mp3.

When Illness is Healing

One of my concerns about the metaphysical community is how illness can be characterized as a direct result of some life lesson not being learned or an unhealthy pattern of thought or action. Some books and websites may that tell you a liver issue reveals unresolved anger and continue to match each ailment to a “wrong thinking” cause. I can understand the temptation to see things this way – following the “right” practices provides a feeling of safety and immunity from illness. Also, when faced with another’s pain, we may seek to emotionally disengage from the sufferer by assigning some fault to their suffering.

But, again and again in my shamanic practice, I see that while there is sometimes a kernel of truth to this viewpoint, it is a misleading oversimplification of physical illness. I can find a belief within myself that engaging in my spiritual practices will spare me from some of the harder aspects of being human, such as illness. But when I do get sick, this belief comes back to bite me, because not only to I feel bad, but I feel like it’s my fault because of some physical, mental or emotional failure on my part.

I recently spent a week in bed with a cold. The last nine months have been intense, most recently with some major shamanic dismemberments and initiations. The illness allowed the physical body and the psyche to catch up to the soul, releasing and reorganizing based on the healing work I had done. I could actually see the energy reaching back into past lives to clear lifetimes where I died of illness. I could see how my dreams were my subconscious reorganizing and resolving certain themes.

To most effectively clear and heal energy from the past we need open up the contained energy. Illnes can be an emotional, physical or mental experience that resonates to where the pain is being held and allows the pain to be released and cleared away, just as a physical cut is sometimes needed to drain infection from under the skin.

Part of why I got sick was because I have a strong intent to be healthy, whole, and healed. Paradoxically, a head cold for a week was the best way to release, clear, and resolve old wounds that my soul carried. It helped me to catch up to myself and to come back into my center. Was there another way to do this healing? Of course. But this was extremely efficient and I’m a big fan of efficiency.

It also gave me a chance to look at the deals I make with the Divine; if I’m a good do-er of my breathwork and supplement swallower, if I manage my emotions well and do my shadow work, then I never have to get sick or have a flat tire. In fact, I had over a year without a cold or a flat tire, so I figured I had everything dialed in. But I realized that while my practices do measurably reduce the illness and flat tires in my life, these things aren’t a pass to get out of the less comfortable aspects of being human. In the case of my recent cold, my intent to be healthy and whole, and my longing for some downtime were stronger than my intent to avoid viruses.

Building Energy

Nine months ago I committed myself to a daily breathwork practice. It builds life force energy and clears the auric field. When I do this daily, my mood, my energy, and my life experience are all brighter. I’m not as vulnerable to other people’s moods or heavy energies as I go through my day.

Yet, there are days when I struggle to sit down and spend 15 minutes doing this practice. If I’m feeling good and up, it’s easier to engage in this kind of self-care, but sometimes if I already feel good, I don’t feel the need so I just “forget”. When I’m feeling down or moody, it’s hard to do the practice. The astrological events since mid-December have been hitting a lot of people hard and personal shadows and feelings of depression seem to be prevalent.

With this kind of life force energy building practice, if I miss a span of time, the first day or so can make me feel worse as the practice moves the stagnant energy out of my field. Plus, if I’m already feeling down, I want to eat a comfort food (rather than health food), curl up with a good book, and hide from my feelings. Doing my practice when I’m already feeling emotionally uncomfortable is to dive into that discomfort and feel it more keenly. There are days I’ve spent more time discussing doing the practice with myself than it would have taken to just do the practice.

So, why am I sharing this? Because 15 to 30 minutes a day of Qi Gong, breathwork, or Tai Chi will transform your life. Bringing in life force energy regularly will heal old wounds across your lifetimes, help you have the energy to get through your day, and provide the best protection I know of from illness. It’s very hard to sustain depression with a daily practice like this, yet, if you’re depressed, it’s very hard to make yourself take this life affirming action.

I know people who bring great self-discipline to their spiritual lives. I bring courage and passion to my journey, but rather poor self-discipline. So, sustaining this practice over the last nine months, even with days missed, has taken a tremendous personal commitment.

I invite you to take a journey towards self-care. I invite you to explore a life building practice and use it not as a space to blame yourself or make yourself bad, but an area to investigate your challenges and learn about yourself. Some days what works is to commit myself to 5 minutes, only to find that once I get past the first minute or so, I’m carried forward to the full practice. Sometime the conversation with myself goes, “Well, I want to feel better, right? Well, if so, my breathwork is the fastest path towards relief.” You might find that a class is needed or a pact with a friend. Perhaps it’s something you can do at lunch but not first thing in the morning. Whatever your path, I invite you to begin or resume this exploration.

Reincarnating within our lifetime

One of the best things about living in this time is that we have the ability to clear pain, patterns and heavy energies that our souls are working with very quickly. Now is a time when we can reincarnate within our own lifetimes, without changing bodies. Our patterns, issues, circumstances, and level of peace can change dramatically from what came before.

In the past, resolving a pattern of abuse might have been a multi-lifetime endeavor, including incarnations as the victim and perpetrator. Or there might have been a full lifetime devote to the subject as unpleasant power struggles flavored many of your human interactions. Today, we can release huge, multi-lifetime patterns very quickly- in a healing session, a fire ceremony or a night of intense dreaming.

Sometime when I do a journey for someone, what needs healing for them is a painful pattern that many souls participated in. My guides will have me call out to all the souls who were part of that pattern and invite them to come to a central fire to complete and release the issue. It’s total choice for which souls answer and I never know who they are, some aren’t even incarnate at this time, but I hold space for everyone who wishes to be released from some big pattern of abuse and pain. Victims and perpetrators can choose to simply release the karmic patterns. For example, I worked with one client who had been a slave in Jamaica a couple hundred years ago and I was able to hold space for all the souls who participated in that pattern (who were available to release it at that moment) to be fr*ee of it.

Another way to tap into the power that’s available is to hold the transpersonal aspect as well as the personal. Whether you’re working with a theme of sexual violence or child abuse, holding intent that as you resolve it in yourself and come to grace, that all who have walked this path have the chance to be released from it. The wisdom and healing our souls achieve goes into the collective human consciousness.

Effective Healing on a Budget

In this message, I will share some effective healing practices and options that cost little or no money. They are a powerful compliment to other healing practices, such as my shamanic sessions. They also stand on their own as practices that, with the discipline of regular use, will provide transformational healing.

On the “Articles” page of my website, there’s a fr*ee .mp3 recorded journey for financial abundance. Instructions for Fire Ceremony are also found on that page. Fire ceremony allows you to transform strong emotion through the fire, instead of through your own emotional matrix, providing accelerated relief from painful emotions. It is a way of disrupting habitual self-abuse and self-criticism and inviting in accelerated change. The fire provides a direct energetic intervention that allows you to reprogram your energetic field and soul blueprint.

One of the things that the guides recommend again and again is life force building practices. Examples include yoga, breathwork, Qi Gong, and Tai Chi. These practices directly increase life force energy, physical health, and emotional balance, while strengthening the lower chakras. This helps clear and heal past pain and trauma. Life force building practices also strengthen your ability to attract money, enjoyable relationships, and wonderful life circumstances. If you find yourself struggling to get through the day, you may not have the energetic reserves to fully manifest the life you desire.

In San Diego, the Grossmont A*dult School offers day and evening classes in Tai Chi, Qi Gong, and Yoga. The website is http://a dultschool.guhsd.net/ (note the absence of the www in this address and remove the space in the url). While their 55+ classes are geared towards older a*dults, they are open to anyone. I’ve taken Tai Chi with W. Orsini and highly recommend him. Two months of twice a week Tai Chi classes cost $13 for the whole program.

Also, Wendy at http://www.emeiqigonghealing.com leads a fr*ee Qi Gong practice in Balboa Park every Saturday morning. I had a great experience there.

If you’re not local to San Diego, you can still purchase a DVD of the Emei Qi Gong healing routine from Wendy’s website or visit http://www.emeiqigong.us for a Qi Gong teacher near you.

For anyone who’s out of work or struggling financially, life force building practices are very helpful in drawing financial opportunity and abundance to you. It’s a great thing to do if you’re out of work and wanting to align yourself to manifest a job.

Sustaining Desired Vibration

I often find myself talking about the great merit of filling up one’s own cup before undertaking to fill anyone else’s. I aspire to always give from a place of abundance and fullness, stopping to refill, replenish, rest and even retreat when my personal and energetic resources get low.

This can be challenging when loved ones are struggling and I choose to get extra sleep or delay returning a phone call until I’m feeling more centered. It’s a balance and the better a job I do of self care, the better I do supporting people I love without resentment or depletion.

Another way to engage with the healing of others is to think not of energy transfer (ie. I give someone energy or channel universal energy on their behalf) but in terms of vibration. If you strike a musical tuning fork, you can transfer the vibration to another tuning fork of the same note without them even touching. The musical note will get louder without the original tuning fork giving up any energy.

As human beings we have all possible notes and vibration potentials within us. So, when you vibrate clearly and strongly to health, joy, financial abundance or well-being, those who so choose will begin vibrating those things within themselves, just due to proximity. What I most admire about the Dali Lama is his ability to vibrate so strongly and clearly that an entire auditorium has the chance to experiences the energy of peace and calm. I’ve experienced this directly with the Zen master Gangaji. Likewise, this is part of my repertoire in teaching shamanism; I can awaken that potential within my students through vibration.

If you have tuning forks of two different notes and you strike each of them, they will cancel each other out, diminishing each other’s vibration. So, if you’re cultivating a certain vibration within yourself- compassion, health, peace, wealth, healing- consider surrounding yourself with people, objects and experiences that support that vibration rather than canceling it. When your chosen vibration is strong and solid, you can be around people, institutions and circumstances of an incompatible vibration and still sustain your own. However, if your resources are low, it’s easy for other people’s stress, anger, poverty, or pain vibrations to activate those frequencies within you.

Thus, trying to do healing for someone in pain when your own resources are low is an extremely challenging situation in which to sustain your own health and balance. Just as it’s not good for people with suppressed immune function to be around those with the flu, if you’re tired and off your center, it’s not helpful to be around people who are also struggling.

Sometime we can’t control the situation or it’s necessary to show up for someone when we’re short on personal resources. Good parenting can fall into this category at times. Yet, holding onto the intent, the touchstone, and the priority of putting energy into filling yourself up when you find your reserves getting low will minimize the time you spend trying to give while depleted.

So how to replenish? Time in nature, Qi Gong, good care of the physical body and time with people who are in authentically good spirits are all good ways to replenish your resources and get your vibration stronger if it feels diminished. Soul retrieval also makes sustaining your center and personal positive vibration vastly easier.

Emotional Triggers and Psychic Clarity

A few evenings ago I heard a loud scrabbling sound under my kitchen table that sounded like a huge rat. I would like to report that as a shamanic practitioner I tuned into the animal and its message. In reality, I climbed onto my couch, pulled my feet up and yelped for my boyfriend to come deal with it. When he couldn’t find it, I spent some amount of time complaining to my cats of their worthlessness since they were not especially interested in the loud scrabbling sounds.

So here I was, all on my own to deal with the rat threat. As I crouched on my couch, listening to the loud noises and planning how I would protect my bedroom with towels against the door, part of me was witnessing my absurdity. What did I imagine even a very large rat could do? It might run across the floor and I might see it. It is very unlikely that the rat would come out from under the table, chase me through the house and attack me. And, if by some bizarre quirk of fate I had ended up with the only attack rat in the greater Southern California area, and it did chase me down, the odds of dying of a rat bite are not exactly high with access to modern medicine.

But my heart was still pounding, until I realized that the horrible scrabbling sound was actually the speakers on my stereo going bad. Once I unplugged the stereo, no more noises.

I saw how scared I could be of something that was so unlikely to be an actual danger. I used this as a teaching example in my class on helping souls cross over to discuss the unfounded fear of ghosts. But this can also apply to the heart pounding fear of speaking up for yourself, saying what you really want, going out into the world, or being seen. (By the way, Fire Ceremony, as described on the articles page of my website, is a great resource for clearing and releasing these kinds of fears.)

The other thing I saw was how once our emotions are triggered- fear, anger, etc- reasoning ability and psychic perception get shut down. When I’m calm, I can track a sliver of my client’s soul across multiple lifetimes to the other side of the world. Yet, with my fear activated, I couldn’t even tell that there was no life spark under my table. It reminded me how easy it is for a psychically gifted person to perceive hostility, psychic attack or entities where there are none, if such things touch upon their fears. As valuable as it is to develop your psychic and healing abilities, cleaning up your emotional triggers and buttons can serve you better in increasing your psychic clarity.

Destiny in Death Valley

August 2010

I met a destiny path in Death Valley this summer. The first and only other time I had been to Death Valley until this summer was in my mother’s womb, just after I’d been conceived. No doubt my soul was following my future parents in their camping adventures. As their dog ran the pads off his feet, my soul created a future intention with some of the people who long ago had lived on the land. On the day that my human self became aware of it, I felt overwhelmingly tired and spacey. When we stopped by the road so I could ground a bit, my boyfriend channeled, “The child of the stars will meet the people of the sand.” Or perhaps the word was “clay” instead of “sand,” he informed me.

I whipped out my drumming music so I could consult with my guides about the cryptic message. I could feel the power behind the words, but had no idea what they meant. My guides had me step straight out into middle world in Death Valley. There a group of spirits informed me, “You are the one we’ve been waiting for.” They showed me that when they died, there was no one to carry on their legacy and wisdom. So, they stayed in middle world, connected to the land, until my soon to incarnate soul came through and agreed to receive the legacy after I grew up.

As the energy flowed into me, many of the souls who had been the anchor for this energetic legacy began to rise to upper world, reintegrating with their higher selves and completing their soul’s journey. One soul, a leader of the people, became a spirit guide of mine, to help me using this legacy. Over the next three weeks, this energy flowed into me and integrated a little at a time. I found that it wasn’t so much that I needed to do anything particular with it, only that it would provide a deeper resources in my healing and teaching work, honoring the wisdom of those who had come before. Now, when I call in my ancestors and guides, these new beings support me as well.

I was awed and humbled by this experience. It took my breath away for a long time. And I found myself a little reluctant to share it, speaking it only to a few people. While I felt unbelievably honored, I also had some feelings that I wasn’t nearly important enough to receive this energy and I’d sound full of myself or self-aggrandizing if I spoke of it. I noticed I could easily share (as I did in my last newsletter) about crouching in my couch afraid of a hypothetical rat that turned out to be a bad speaker. But somehow sharing this amazing moment in my life felt more vulnerable than sharing a foolish moment.

So, I invite you to look at where you might be hiding your light. With all my shadow work, I’ve become more comfortable being transparent and compassionate with myself when I’m selfish, shallow, or triggered. Yet, brilliant is also part of the picture. I can be a remarkably powerful practitioner and a woman who is freaked out about the possibility of a rat in her house. It’s all part of the territory of being human.

A Guided Shamanic Journey for Balance

October 2010 newsletter

The last six weeks have been a full and emotionally intense time for me. Between the Mercury and Venus retrogrades and assorted other astrological events, the stars certainly reflect this experience. On a more day to day level, it’s looked like a lot of smaller things that add up.

My personal shadow work has been up, self-judgments, worrying what others might think of me. I’ve had some challenging themes from my childhood arise for healing. I’ve mourned the destinies I’ve released in the last months in favor of the ones that are most alive for me.

One of the biggest challenges for me has been experiencing so many of the people I love most in their own intense processes. Perhaps it’s an occupational hazard of hanging out with healing practitioners and lightworkers, but many of the people I’m close to and a lot of people in my general network are going through huge life changes and challenges. Even when it’s good and growthful stuff, it’s not a time that I would describe as easy or peaceful.

So, when I prepared to write my newsletter, I wanted to share something about being extra kind to ourselves and noticing that it might not just be one big thing if you’re struggling right now, but a lot of smaller things.

Instead I decided to offer a fr*ee gift of a guided shamanic journey. The journey I recorded will help you resource yourself with energy from heaven and earth, release old energies and layers, connect with your being and your inner child. The energy I channeled onto the recording is intended to soothe and resource you while promoting deep healing and peace with yourself, all in just over ten minutes. I hope that it helps to ease and support you in your personal journey.

To download the .mp3, visit my website at http://www.handsoverheart.com and click on the “articles” page.

Parrots and the Present Moment

November 2010 Newsletter

As I sit down to write this month’s shamanic message, the wild parrots in my neighborhood are flying by. The setting sun illuminates the vibrant green of their wings and their voices fill the air. On the shamanic path, I pay attention to what comes into my awareness. I noticed that I was tuning out about 30 parrots, flying in front of my picture window, making a remarkably loud racket. I love the parrots and it makes me happy to see them. They only come by at sunset and not all days, so it’s a rare and special experience.

It reminded me of doing a personal vision quest in which I was sitting by the ocean. I had tuned in so strongly to my inner vision that I was unaware of the world around me. I suddenly looked up to see the ocean directly in front of me filled with dozens of dolphins. The message was clear, “Katie, when you’re so wrapped up in your own head, you miss the beauty and blessings right in front of you.”

The last week has been joyful, as a spontaneous trip to Hawaii has come to me. I’ve been delightedly planning, booking and preparing to be ready to leave in early December for ten days. Yet, happy and excited as I am, I notice I’ve felt disconnected from my body and even what’s loudly in front of me. Even for something as joyful as Hawaii in the future or as painful as loved ones who are struggling elsewhere, I don’t want to miss the parrots in the present moment.

One of my teachers commented about awful things that happen to us, such as painful comments or abusive events. He pointed out that the event happened once, yet we inflicted it upon ourselves by reviewing it in our head again and again. With many people close to me going through personal traumas, illnesses and challenges, I notice that my own fears and the fears of others about money, illness, pain, etc, have been very alive. One of the places to seek grounding and consolation in the present moment. Even if five minutes from now life is likely going to suck, or the last five minutes were really hard, if this moment doesn’t suck, meet it as fully as you can and enjoy the relief.

In the last month, my Tonglen practice, as taught by Pema Chodron, has been very alive for me. Breathing into the feelings and breathing out relief for myself and everyone else feeling the same thing is often what’s most available to me to center myself in grace. I recommend Tonglen as a wonderful way to work with this time.

The final piece my guides are asking me to share is giving yourself credit where credit is due. A lot of people have felt tired and this last month included deep shadow work for many. I’ve found my productivity has diminished. Yet I’m navigating a time in which I’m holding space for loved ones, working with some of my own deep woundings, and it’s all happening with grace, although I’ve been more tired than usual. If you’re managing to walk through this time with a degree of grace and compassion for others, give yourself a lot of credit.

For most people, this is not a time of expansive energy of visioning new things, starting new projects or undertaking new goals. It’s much more a dark night of the soul or internal review time. I invite you to trust that your motivation, energy, and enthusiasm for creating new things will return if you honor your soul’s need for downtime and nurturing when it arises.